CRYSTALLINE Lightning▲Storm.

discourse.
crystal hawk.
earth elements.
blood bath.
ghost ship.



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i made it this far to tell the story 19, 2012 and 5 seconds in, pyrite and bones in my pockets and a rattle in my tongue. the lounge was dusty( fireflies and dirt lips) and daggers were in pockets, men with rotten teeth who kiss you and you love them.  my king my love, an army battle and i who was queen.  he lay in fluid affection, delicate ruin, stained the floor;  bleeding blue to red,  in blood death ritual my king dies.  i carved out his heart and etched my name in perfect cursive. i walk around bare footed and step on nails, glass, ghosts but i don’t feel any longer,  i died so long ago my numb womb carried through dimensions of eternity and i awoke to this, years had past. he was the best fuck i ever had. then empathetic nightmares and the twilight zone at 4 AM because your dope sick.  waver and ween with me, i asked to go to the clinic but i’m neither the victim or addict, im just looking for answers in the cruel yet delicate hours transpiring around me, ( a book on transcendental meditation dictated by my god) and then i found i was old and the banter and the parties made me want to puke and scream and shove nails in my breast and razors under my fingernails.  i will never work again. never create again,  i can die alone and you will perhaps find me and begin to cry.  have i given up, given in to murderous behavior, waiting for immaculate change and opulence in my life.  am i meant as the eternal widow morning the death of earth gods and true love.  the stray cats howl and meow all night, they breed and make bone thin gangly kittens who grow up to do the same, patchwork calico street gangs.  act 2 back to the wall i felt you touch me and i shook with a tremendous quake that my ankles rolled and my eyes began to twitch.  Who were all these people?  was i dreaming i was married to a wolf, i was riding it, i was kissing it, it was mine. do our spirits live and die in different bodies, did i see you as the wolf?  then i awoke.  again.  i will not leave this place and i will never die. 

i made it this far to tell the story

19, 2012 and 5 seconds in, pyrite and bones in my pockets and a rattle in my tongue. the lounge was dusty( fireflies and dirt lips) and daggers were in pockets, men with rotten teeth who kiss you and you love them. 

my king my love, an army battle and i who was queen.  he lay in fluid affection, delicate ruin, stained the floor;  bleeding blue to red,  in blood death ritual my king dies.  i carved out his heart and etched my name in perfect cursive. i walk around bare footed and step on nails, glass, ghosts but i don’t feel any longer,  i died so long ago my numb womb carried through dimensions of eternity and i awoke to this, years had past.

he was the best fuck i ever had.

then empathetic nightmares and the twilight zone at 4 AM because your dope sick. 

waver and ween with me, i asked to go to the clinic but i’m neither the victim or addict, im just looking for answers in the cruel yet delicate hours transpiring around me, ( a book on transcendental meditation dictated by my god) and then i found i was old and the banter and the parties made me want to puke and scream and shove nails in my breast and razors under my fingernails.  i will never work again. never create again,  i can die alone and you will perhaps find me and begin to cry. 

have i given up, given in to murderous behavior, waiting for immaculate change and opulence in my life.  am i meant as the eternal widow morning the death of earth gods and true love. 

the stray cats howl and meow all night, they breed and make bone thin gangly kittens who grow up to do the same, patchwork calico street gangs. 

act 2 back to the wall i felt you touch me and i shook with a tremendous quake that my ankles rolled and my eyes began to twitch.  Who were all these people?  was i dreaming i was married to a wolf, i was riding it, i was kissing it, it was mine. do our spirits live and die in different bodies, did i see you as the wolf? 

then i awoke. 

again.  i will not leave this place and i will never die.